What’s The Purpose?

I was guttered in the beginning

I couldn’t believe it was so.

What the hell is going on

I didn’t even know.


What was this disease they speak of

and how will it hurt me?

I wasn’t ready for the answers

I didn’t even want to see


I said “This sucks!”

I’ve looked after myself always

Was it all for nothing???


There was a time I said “I’m tough!”

This disease will not win

But through my ignorance I let it

And thank God I looked within.


I am know full of knowledge

and learning more every day.

“I will beat this disease!”

is what I can hear myself say.


I am giving myself love,

I meditate whenever I can.

I believe I am part of the answer

the Universe has a plan.


I am such a different person

to the one I was before.

I have realised my life’s purpose,

I am beginning to see what’s in store.


It’s kindness, love and gratitude

especially to myself.

I have more excitement for life

I am getting down off the shelf.


MS is not going to beat me,

In fact I am grateful that it came.

It’s taught me so much about life

Happiness and self-love is what I have gained.


Thank You for the lessons

and the new life that I know

I have been really good listener

So MS, now you may go!

Giving our Kids the Gift

“I am going to live on the beach in a beautiful white house, with a beautiful verandah and I will walk along the beach everyday, watching the waves roll in, smelling the salt air and be happy!” This is a statement that my daughter has said to me for a number of years now. When I would question her about this, she was always adamant that this is just how it’s going to be. I used to say “Ok Babe, Good luck with that. You do realise you actually have to have a lot of money to do that?” However, she has never wavered and would always be absolutely sure that her life would end up this way. She can tell me in great detail what the house will look like and feel like.

After a recent life changing experience myself, I realised she actually knows the secret to life. Her soul has obviously been here before and she knows how to be happy. It seems simple but you just have to genuinely believe, for something to happen. To visualise the future, how it feels, how it looks, tastes, sounds will put us in the right vibration and the universe can not help but give it to us. We always say to kids, “You can be whatever you want to be!” However I am not convinced I actually believed what I was saying until now. We all have the power to live amazing file (003) lives, we all have choices that we make everyday and if we make a positive choice or have a positive thought, slowly buy surely the universe will provide. Why do we not share this with our children? Manifesting is believing that our dreams will come true. I am grateful that I have learned this now and that my daughter has helped to affirm my new understanding of the world. I trust that everything, and I mean everything, happens for a reason and I have learned this lesson now because now is the time that I am ready and I was meant to learn it.

Imagine if we taught our children from a young age that they have the power to control their own destiny no matter what the situation is. If we think negative thoughts, if when our children are disappointed or life doesn’t go their way we provide them with the negative language to give them permission to be negative then that will always be there go to. So let’s all try seeing the positive in every situation. Trust me I know that it is difficult but if we can teach our kids this from a young age we will be giving them the tools to continue life into adulthood being healthier than ever before. Mentally Healthier!

She is only 12 but I am really looking forward to the day I sit with her and have a coffee on the verandah at her house on the beach!!!

The Universe can’t help but give, even to children

The universe truly is amazing and the more faith I have in it the more it gives me. I was actually sitting and contemplating why we don’t teach children the secret of life, how to find their soul’s purpose and spend their life nourishing their soul. I had the thought that people would say that is way over their head, they couldn’t comprehend that. Yet we teach children about Religion from a very early age and expect them to believe, even though most of that is hard to show evidence and prove.

So as I was contemplating this thought my son walks over to me head down and obviously not happy with life. He had been waiting all day for his mate to return to the caravan park we are holidaying in. I said you know what? Take 5 minutes, lay on the lounge and imagine / picture/ believe Joey, his mate, coming back to the park. What it will look like, feel like, sound like, smell like. So he laid down on the lounge and did this. I actually forgot he was doing it but within 4 minutes he jumps up off the lounge saying “Joey’s back!!”. I hadn’t even heard them return but the point is he was so excited and said “Thanks mum , it actually worked !” “The universe is so cool!”

So not only did the universe answer Will, at the same time it answered me. The answer is Yes! Yes! Yes! Children can be taught about the laws of attraction and have The Secret to an amazing life.

Self Love

I thought I always had self love! I was proud of myself for the way I dealt with things that had occurred in my life and I allowed other people to see me! I never pretended to be someone I wasn’t and I have always been brutally honest. I can’t lie well because the truth is written all over my face. But one day when I walked in to see my spiritual healer she said. “I have been waiting for this day since the first time I met you!” I was thinking wow that’s really exciting is she going to tell me I am going to win the lotto? Am I going to have a dream holiday? No! she told me that as long as she had known me and could see the real me, which was a couple of years, my heart was blue. I had no love in my heart, I did not love myself.

I was blown away. I wanted to tell her that is not true! I have always been happy and proud of who I am of course I love myself! However, I trust her implicitly and continued to listen. As we worked through the session I realised I was scared of feeling love from others and for myself. Why? Because at a young age my dad died tragically and obviously broke my heart. I was scared to have it broken again so although I thought I loved myself, I had a shield of protection that I had subconsciously put around my heart in fact around my whole body! I didn’t even realise! It was stopping me from feeling what life could truly be.

After that session which was 8 weeks ago I have meditated everyday and basically focussed on self love meditation. I didn’t even realise life could feel this way. I didn’t actually love myself I was just happy when people around me felt my love and when people around me were happy. Now I see life in a whole different way. I have this amazing feeling that I get from my heart like a vibration from the universe and an endless supply of love pumping through my veins. I honestly have never felt this way in my life and now that I am putting it out there into the universe I can see that not only is it making me happy it is making people around me happier as well.

I didn’t realise that fear was ruling my life, my every decision. I would think “what if this doesn’t work ” , “What if it’s a mistake”. Now I have confidence in the universe that it has my back and if I do the right thing and love myself, my true self, then things will be good actually things will be great.

The law of attraction is coming into play again. I am putting love out into the universe and I am getting it back in abundance. Who knew life could feel this amazing? Looking back this lesson I learnt was far more exciting that winning the lotto or going on my dream holiday because this has changed my life forever!

MS has taught me self love and with that comes the healing. Maybe for me MS stands for My Self and it’s time to focus on that!!

The Signs keep coming!!!

A few weeks ago after I had that first session with my spiritual healer, when she filled me with hope that I am going to beat this disease, I went to the shopping centre and while I was there I went to the book department. I had no reason to go there at all but I just found myself drawn to that area. Again an amazing thing happened, the universe took me there. After 18 months of believing there was no cure to MS and therefore letting it take over my life I picked up a book called Medical Medium by Anthony William. It kind of jumped out at me, as I looked through the index I find Chapter 4: Multiple Sclerosis. I turned to chapter 4 and see the sentence “The truth is Multiple Sclerosis can be healed” 

Wow ! That is exactly what I needed to hear. I already believed it on a spiritual level, as I trust my spirit guides and healer but I now have the physical evidence I need to make this happen. I felt like I was floating out of the shop. I bought the book obviously.

As I was reading the Chapter on MS I came across a page full of suggested supplements to help cure myself. I started to read and recognised some of the words but there was a lot that I didn’t understand which was ok as I already see a medical herbalist, surely she would know all about them. My concern was what if she thinks I am crazy? What if she doesn’t believe in the spirit world? What if she doubts this book?I realised I was just not trusting myself ( old habits die hard). Anyway jump forward to today and I walk in to my medical herbalist to have a chat with her and pick up some supplements. You wouldn’t believe it but right there sitting on her front desk was the book Medical Medium. Of all the books in all the world and of all the times I could have walked in. There it was looking right at me. Thank you Universe another sign that this is actually happening.

Beach Hypnosis

Sitting here at the beach and I have realised why I love this place so much and why it is good for my soul. Who wouldn’t love it? It’s magical!

I’m calling it beach hypnosis. My mind stops worrying as soon as I breathe the salt air and even stops thinking about my conscious thoughts. I start seeing the big picture and wonder sets in.

The seasons are changing, it’s Spring now and although it’s still cool there are more people here today, it feels different. Life is evolving and changing for me and that is something I always found a little scary but now that I have let go of fear, I see the beauty in change. Even the beach has changed over the last few weeks. There is now a little creek in the middle of the beach which is causing havoc for a few people I have watched this morning trying to walk along the beach with their shoes on. Some people walk right around it to get down to the waters edge, some people tried jumping over but landed right in it and others just went straight through it shoes and all. Although it caused some drama for these people ( and humour for me) lots of other people loved it. There was an older couple with their camera trying to capture the perfect shot, dogs absolutely loving their new water park and parents who were sitting, watching their toddlers splash in the water. The beach has changed and evolved but change is ok, people obviously still love it.

I am watching a number of surfers sitting waiting for a wave, I think some of them have been out there for over an hour and maybe caught one wave ( there wasn’t much on offer). But I realise they are probably experiencing Beach Hypnosis as well. They probably are clearing their minds and happy to sit out there for hours.

As soon as I step onto the sand or even smell the salt air for that matter my conscious thought, concerns, fears and worries disappear and my subconscious mind kicks in. I get lost in thoughts like the power of the waves, beauty of the rock formations and also the relationships of people at the beach and their relationships with the beach. Why are they here? What purpose does the beach serve to them? Pretty sure for most people it’s a retreat , as they all seem happy. I’m feeling very grateful right now that I live near the coast and get to have time to sit here and breathe the salt air. This place reduces my stress levels dramatically and takes my worries away, which is allowing my body to focus on healing itself.

I feel calm, peaceful, refreshed and I am ready to take on the rest of the day. It will be sure to be a good day ❤️ 🏖

Affirmations and the Law of Attraction

One thing that I am going to use heal myself is positive affirmations and the law of attraction. I have known about setting intentions for a long time but have only recently truly understood that they actually work and the reason why they work.

I realise the universe provides for you when you truly believe you can do something. For years whenever I have been writing , ever since being at school many years ago, I have asked the universe to help me put the right words on the page for a positive outcome. Often I would even say this out loud to others when they were reading what I had written. They would often look at me like I was crazy but that didn’t bother me. Whether it be a story, a poem, a work email or even an assignment. Often I would look back and read it and be surprised by what I had written, as if I hadn’t written it myself and it was not familiar to me.

Looking back I now realise I was using the law of attraction. I asked the universe to help because I believed it would and of course it did.

So now I am using this approach to help heal myself from MS. I actually believe it will happen and feel the excitement of it happening and the vibration of it happening. It will happen!

Signs from the Universe

For a long time I have been a believer that the Universe gives you signs to help you in life. I remember going to the dentist as a teenager, a place I do not like, and my favourite song came on the radio. Suddenly I felt calm and knew it was all going to be ok.

Unfortunately, throughout my life I didn’t realise that I was getting so many signs from the universe that were trying to help me. It’s not that I deliberately ignored them, I just literally didn’t know they were messages. Thinking back now so many things happened, even new people entering my life, but I did not get the message.

Luckily, now that I am aligning myself with the Universe and am thinking back, so many things are making sense. Everything happens for a reason and the more you trust the more you receive.

Why did I get MS?

A question I have asked myself many times over the last 18 months. I got it because I haven’t been listening to the universe which has been trying to show me how to be the happiest person I could be for many years now. But as I wasn’t catching the little pebbles it was throwing me, it threw a massive boulder that stopped me in my tracks. For 18 months I felt frustration, anger, disappointment and of course exhausted. I have looked after myself my whole life, I got angry with the Universe as I believed I didn’t deserve this.

But now, due to an amazing lady in my life, I see life very differently. As I was telling her about my feelings and basically thinking that this disease Sucks! And it’s not fair! She said “But what if your whole life you have been preparing for this moment!” ” What if you have the power and the knowledge to be the person that helps find a cure for MS!” Again I was stopped in my tracks but this time not by MS , it was by a thought of hope, faith, determination and inspiration for the future.

I will cure myself of Multiple Sclerosis

Important that I start my blog with how I intend to finish. I will be a strong, healthy, vibrant and energetic person. If you had told me six weeks ago that I would start a blog with that statement I wouldn’t have believed you for two reasons. One is I never thought I would write a blog and secondly I had surrendered to MS and believed it was my life forever but how wrong I was.

“I believe it and I am going to achieve it!”