Forgiveness is all about me

I did not realise that I was actually hanging on to so much negative emotion that was actually controlling my life. I forgive people so that they can move on but I didn’t realise I often hold on to the negative emotion that is stopping me from existing at the vibration that I love.

While visiting my spiritual healer she asked me if “I forgive easily? “and of course I said “yes” because I thought I did. As I said, I forgive the other person involved so that they can move on with our relationship and ultimately their lives and yet she made me realise I still hold on to the anger, hurt, frustration, disappointment and sadness in my body.

I was blind sided again because I wasn’t who I thought I was. I was holding on to grudges that I didn’t even acknowledge. I realised I felt a lot of anger towards my dad for dying when I was three. It wasn’t his fault, he didn’t deliberately die but somewhere in my body I just felt resentment and anger towards him for bailing on us at such a young age. It seems irrational but it was holding me back from being my higher self. At my healing, I discussed this and for the first time ever I actually said out loud “I forgive you dad” which gave me a feeling of sheer relief and release.

I have been to many medium, psychics and spiritual healers over the years and my dad never came though. This made me think that he truly didn’t care about me, however the moment I said “I forgive you dad” I could feel him holding my hand , squeezing it like my nan used to. Then to my delight Nicole, my healer said “your dad is sitting next to you. He has been there your whole life but you were not at a vibration that could connect with him” Nicole described him to a tee. She was also laughing at him because she said “he is so cheeky!”

I feel like I now have a strong relationship with my dad, he has my back and walks through life with me. Even when others try to knock me down, I’m just like “Are you kidding ? Can’t you see this big, strong amazing guy standing behind me (and his beer gut!). I am now braver than I have ever been. Not only do I know the Universe has my back , I know my dad does too.

For the last month I have been focussing my meditations on forgiveness, sometimes the most random things come up, like the girl that threw my netball onto the road in year 3. But I acknowledge and the I realise. My vibration is no longer bogged down in negative emotions but soaring in the clouds.

I also met one of my spiritual guides at that healing. His energy was phenomenal but I will leave that for a whole other post.

Healing MySelf from Multiple Sclerosis has changed my life for the better. I’m grateful, I’m so glad you came but now MS you may go.

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Time to Stop! …and smell the roses.


Often in life we are so busy doing, that we forget how to be. During this Journey many times  I stop and think about how my life has bloomed into what it is today. I love reading about the Universe, spirits and how amazing life is meant to be and yet it took Illness to get me to this point as I kept ignoring the signs I was getting. Obviously I have always been a believer but doubt used to sneak into my thoughts. I am currently reading The Universe has your Back by Gabrielle Bernstein. An amazing book which constantly affirms to me all the beliefs I have had for all these years but I just didn’t 100% fully commit to them.  I am actually feeling like I exist at a different vibration these days and I walk around knowing I have my Spirit Guides with me and they also have my back 100%. No longer living in fear but in love and the more I allow myself to experience life and be in the moment, the higher my vibration becomes and the happier life is. Taking time to smell the roses is something I have literally always done but now I show gratitude for all the beautiful things in my life, all the things that were sent to me with love from the Universe and I no longer get caught up in fear of the not so beautiful things in life.

My Puppy Eddie is the perfect example of this. I was never a dog person and neither was my husband, I was always scared of them and actually to be honest I was scared of change! Until one day after being asked by my children many times if we could get a puppy I surrendered and trusted and let go of my fear.  I had so many thoughts going through my head and so many reasons why I thought it wouldn’t work out but thank God I had faith that it would all be for the best. That is how Eddie came into our lives and now I could not imagine our family without him! I am so grateful he was sent to us and he is a constant reminder that the Universe wants us to be happy.

Even Eddie takes the time to smell the roses!!!!!





Cloud Angels

Looking back at my photos from earlier this year it hit me smack in the face. The Universe gave me an amazing sign. I noticed it, I took a photo of it then after I thanked the Universe I totally forgot about it.

One day I was sitting at the rockpool with family and friends. As I looked up I saw the most beautiful cloud. I often see cloud angels and photograph them but this was different. It was a definite sign that I now know was meant for me. It was a beautiful love heart in the clouds.

A message from the universe that self-love holds the answer to my well being and healing. I am so grateful I am on this journey now where I give myself permission to not only acknowledge these amazing signs from the Universe but accept that they are actually for me! 🏖❤️ I will beat this disease!